cosas

Things that I don't understand:

1) Why people who live on campus drive off campus to buy beer and leave the cases in the parking lot. Literally, hundreds of them litter the blacktop of D6 after every weekend. Just put them in the recycling. No one is going to arrest you for that. Kids these days.

2) The separation of the word "another." For example, "a whole nother."

3) Why the bathrooms in DeBartolo always stink.

4) Why I can't write this paper.

CA for grad school? Northwestern? I feel I'm still a little too dumb for big kid school. What in the world am I doing with my life.

And how am I so blind. all. the. time.

Taking time for myself is both stupid and futile

OK well that's kind of a lie. I have kept running to maintain my sanity. My wimp of a shin starting killing me again so I walked the two blocks back to my house during my run this morning. I started thinking that maybe walking isn't so bad... if you're hurting. Walking is like crying. Runners don't walk, and strong people don't cry. But I guess it's OK given extenuating circumstances like these. It gives you a little opportunity to center yourself and slow down for a minute. I have so long lived by the 'never let them see you sweat' mentality. Anything that might call that to question freaks me out and disgusts me about myself.

No, I'm not the one you should be worried about. My friend is the strongest person in the world right now. This is not fair and I have lost hope in a lot of things. There's no guidebook for this shit. Me deja confundida y enojada al mismo tiempo.

Missing Marion and I'm not even gone

here are some aspects of this joke life I will so badly miss:

1) Not being in close proximity with my best friends 247
2) Clear cut expectations
3) The @nd.edu email account
4) When BOMOing is neither acceptable nor commonplace
5) La falta de responsibilidad
6) This false sense of independence
7) Being too busy to do anything any normal human would think second nature
8) The bed I found in this room
9) Having at my fingertips a wardrobe 1000% bigger than my own
10) South Bend

I have decided I want to go to graduate school the year after next. This is a big step for me— pinpointing what I want. The identification is 90 percent of the battle for me. I think it will be good this summer and this year to get some experience, be it unpaid or paid, to boost my resume before the app process. I would never get accepted anywhere right now.

I love spring in the Midwest so much because everyone appreciates it that much more.

apx

Graduation in a month and three days is like impending death. Or the apocalypse, if you will, wherein we all know it's coming but not quite sure what it brings or what comes next. Lightheartedly a-OK with it all.

I raced my friend home from the bar the other day and fell and busted my lip and knee and chipped my tooth. I awoke Saturday morning thinking, oh dear what a horrible dream. Then looked in the mirror and WOAH. very real. very hick. Thankfully Doc got the good ol' diente mended that morning as well as the lip all patched up. oops. Thankfully Mom and Dad are still riding the wave of, for whatever reason or another, being proud of me and my impending (_fill in the blank noun__) that they have not been mad. I blame it on my "competitive edge." he